♥ Colour my Life

Friday, February 29, 2008

{ 12:54 AM }

I bit goodbye to those whom i am leaving behind here,

i don wish to go, but i think of the fun and frolic i am gonna

have even if its gonna be wd my parents i noe they will give me wat i want.

I need a break, this is my proper holiday

after mugging for o's,

yes indeed i deserve this.

But i cant accept the fact that jus after

you can spend all ur days wid me,

i jus hav to go.

OHH, DAMN.

Nevertheless, i noe you will be wid me

jus like a tattoo and ur image will always

overwhelm my mind anyway.

So i need not worry much.

Since i was waiting for long to enjoy,

its time babyyyy!

whee!

Its time to to revel in luxury.

I feel like a princess cause everything

seems to be planned for me and not for parents?

umm..

A feeling of warm personal attachment,

thats how i feel now wid my parents.

10 DAYS.

HELL YEAH,HELL YEAH

I am a bit excited and i noe am gonna miss u alot baby!

so, i shall blog after ten days hah.

see yaa!

muah!

She loves him up every chance she gets.

Love is like the wind. You cannot see it but you can always feel it

Time to disco,

ahah!

Monday, February 25, 2008

{ 5:14 AM }

DEAR,
sickness
would u mind leaving me alone?
i need to enjoy my holidays,
in india.
So i beg u to jus find someone else whom
u can haunt and make them a sickling,
cause its the second damn time u strike
me within 3 weeks,
tis isnt a game alright?
It doesnt sound nice lyin down all day despite the
weather, not eating proper meals, unable to smell anything,oh and the best part cant breathe when i slp!

Ending on a lighter note,
i miss you,
tis could be the reason am not
denyin.

I feel the urge to be a designer whee!
I love u lord!

Saturday, February 23, 2008

{ 7:44 AM }

Natalie believes she's been with angels.

A few brought her to bliss.

Though, of course,

she lives in our age,

Awash in lust, greed, cruelty, and rage,

Like her mentors, she finds inner grace

In love of all there is.

Life's joy is fed

Each day by loveliness too pure to trace.

He has answered my prayers.

For he is great (:

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

{ 8:07 PM }

life's A bitch for now.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

{ 7:40 AM }

As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility

I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me

So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done

And things that have not occurred yet

And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for

I’m sorry for the times I had some sleep

I was on the bed and you were vexed

I’m sorry for the times that I had to go

I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know

That you were sitting there just wishing i

Could come there and light

I’m sorry for the times I would neglect

I’m sorry for the times I disrespect

I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done

I’m sorry I’m not always there when you want

I’m sorry for the fact that I'm not aware

That i just can sleep when ure waiting there

Because I am jus too playful day by day

Sorry for the things that I did not say

Like how you are the best thing in my world

And how I'm so proud to call you my boy

I understand that there are some problems

And I am not too blind to know

All the pain you kept inside you

Even though you might not show

If I can apologize for being wrong

Then it’s just a shame on me

I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me

Sorry for the things that he put you through

And all the times you didn’t know what to do

Sorry that you had to cover up

Just trying to put me thru

And you would rather be having me there at church

As one big family with love and bliss

And even though your mom was expecting me,

Am Just a little young girl trying to have fun,

And you can put that blame on me

You can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

Baby am really sorry,

i have learnt my lesson,

i love you real deep.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

{ 7:04 AM }

FIRSTLY,

hell yeah,hell yeah,hell yeah

SINGAPOREE WONNNNNNNNNN THE AMAZING RACE ASIA LA!! BILA BILA LA!

SO EFFING HAPPY:)

disability is never a factor man,

rock on adrian&collin.KUDOS TO YOU!

I was a faithful follower of the show and my team made it,

i was in tears of joy.

the feeling is dam shoikk can!

called akka, jennifer and allister,

started screaming till i nearly dropped hah!

can wait for SEASON 3.

SECONDLY,

i got roses for v .day from my bubu,

my first set of roses that is!

i soo love it thanks alot darlingg

you made my day!

14TH FEB 2006,

My prince came along,

saw his ever appealing face

at siglap,

from then..................

TO BE CONTINUED.

*blush*

THIRDLY,

is visual communication

for me or?

Well,well,well

Amazing but true,

i was called up,

drew some object,

questions asked,

outcome?

communication is my forte but?

In life, you might not get what you want,

so start loving what you get :)

Ponderr till i wonderrr..

Baby booo!<3

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

{ 1:10 AM }

And sooo..

lunching wid casti, lloyd and hana,

afterwhich hana and myself we headed

down to Claymore pt

where boredom strikedd.

haha!

PICS :)

Saturday, February 9, 2008

{ 9:35 AM }

For some reason,

i miss schooling.

i miss 'o' level stress,

i miss being responsible as a class chair man,

i miss recessing wid fellow mates,

i miss tamil classin wid convent gals,

i miss waffles after lessons,

i miss beggin castillo if i can drink oreo ice blend,

i miss showing off my beautiful name on the bus hehe,

i miss Mr goh boon leong,

i miss assembly on mondays which makes me go crazy,

i miss being caught by mistress for short skirts, name tAgless and ankle socks,

i miss laughin out loud during recesss wid gang,

i miss starin at unglam people haha!,

i miss Mt lessons in the library wid shilpee n priya,

i miss sleeping when teacher aint around,

i miss crying cause of stress,

i miss running around in sch uniform to tuitions,

i miss having 3 tuitions including tamil class,

i miss castillo advising me on how i should manage time,

i miss PE lessons cause we always win,

i miss 2.4km runs cause its dam shoik!,

i miss sch's cross country,

i miss having sports day+cheers,

i miss shappire house,

i miss chemistry lessons :( ,

i miss doing math till i cry,

i miss writing tamil compos,

i miss sleeping early,

i miss having a time table to catch up wid,

i miss havin a target,

i miss pushin myself to the extreme,

i miss i miss i misssssssssssssss,

i will jus go on n on,

It has all ended jus like that,

wat a waste,

it was one hell of a year man,

now we all lead different paths,

am soo gonna miss my friends.

Currently am only in touch wid beloved priya,

the rest?

i wish u guys the best for ur future endeavours ya :)

CHAI CHEE I MISS YOU!

How much i misss youuu nowww boyyy!

Ponder replay.

He walks wid me a long way :)

Friday, February 8, 2008

{ 4:56 AM }

I seem to be sauntering around my house aimlessly.
Cant smell no shit cause my health isnt getting
anywhere near healing.TV is out of order which means
no entertainment.Baby's also sick,which means
boredom.MOm's off which means no outings for me.
How lifeless can i get? hah.BUt i hadd a gd rest!
slept my whole day off! hehe.Uncertainty still nagged at me,though.
As said, being home wid absolutely nothin to do is jus mental torture! I want CNY to be over sharpish, cause every shop
seems to be closedd! annoyingness.
How i wish i can pay a visit of condolence to AHMENG who
had to leave the zoo so soon.You will always be missed my dear AHMENG.Hope ur 48 years of living was meaningful enough.
You aint jus a orangutan to me, but a mother n grandma who wass jus simply too adorable.Even if AHMENG junior takes over, you still rock dingdongs.AM so gonna go for her tribute! REST IN PEACE. MUAH!
Am gonna throw myself down on the bed, hoping for sleep to
banish my thoughts.

bubye.

castillo is being missed! :)
He lives within me.

Ponderism.

Thursday, February 7, 2008

{ 9:45 AM }

Half of wat she got me :0

SEN2SA!

haha!

Seriouslyy,

apu neh nehs

got no where to go today but to sentosa!

ALLEYESONME(if you noe wat i mean)

it was super packed,

but thank god for the good weather.

i haddd lotts of fun plus my skin is tearing apart,

due to sun burn!

Left sentosa for auntyy sheila's place

which was at yishun.

There we were suppose to hav movie marathon,

but noo!

My darling sister wanted to go dinnerin wid me!

wheee..

We flew to cavana,

filled our tummy,

and finnally got to watch amazing race together,

like FINALLY CAN!

Akka got me awesome stuffs from US.

LOve her truck lots.

Overall,

today was jus plain fun :)

my body still aches,

my heads spinning cause of the freaking medications.

offf too bed.

tatas.

OH,

BABYS BACK WHEEE!<3

PONDER REPLAY.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

{ 4:56 AM }

I miss your touch.

It never dims, that memory of rejection.
It feels like the end.
I know i am beyond consoling.
My dream of a life in nursing seemed wrecked.
I was completely gone, in floods of tears.
Its not my first setback but it hurts like hell.
BUT, i enjoy every second of it because,
i know i will never experience you again,
i hope. I hav dried my tears and soothed my pain
I jus hav to pray hard to get into somewhere sharpish.

In my devastation, I seized on dad's words,
he was all compassion and common sense,
he knew i had a way thru.
Still, for all dad's tender words, the sense of
frustration, humiliation and bitterness lingered.
NO reason could ease my grief, though.
I loathed the taste of failure.
My anger at nyp's cold shoulder will never subside,
thats for sure!

With a heavy heart, i resume my life!

I am missing my baby boy lots now,
When i shut my eyes, it feels like i hav fallen into
a windwhirl of things i never wanted to think about.
My throat hurts, my ass too.
When i walk it feels like i am puttin
ankle-irons of lethargy about my legs.
feeling sucks!
A better tmrm should be on my way,
i wanna go sentosa whee!

baby i really miss you,
medication is making me go crazy.
Hope u enjoy urself, and GONG XI FA CHAI.
hah!
I am feedin on madarin oranges yum yum.
HAPPY 5 YEARS ANNI CASSY N LESLIE!
may u guys be togther till eternity!muah!
Hana, gt well soon ya, we r the sicklings!

Ending on a lighter note,

He is leadin me to a somewhere.

trust and obey for theres no other way :)

Still i ponderr....

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

{ 6:57 AM }

basically,

I NEED TO SHIT!

it has all been clogged up for three days.
Bananas, yakults, papayas, milk, mom's "indian medication"
is all to no avail.
BLOATED is the word.
my baby is going malaysia and am gonna miss him truck lots.
Boredom is high on my list for now,
i need to play,jump,swim,jog either one.
am thinking of the beach sounds good eh?
alrightyyy gtg try other alternatives to pass it outtt man,

i still do(:
i love u castillooo

but am still pondering...

Monday, February 4, 2008

{ 12:21 AM }

Angel of god, my guardian dear, whom god sent to help me here.

Ever this day be at my side, to light and guard, to rule and guide. Amen.

This was the prayer i said to myself before my name was even called.

puttin on a smile from ear to ear i entered the room with myheart beating at a rate of god noes wat.

I must say, it was a gd experience which turned out bad.

The man seemed friendly but the lady needed a punch i swear, with a sagging face she gave me a sacastic smile which irritated the shit of of me. Oh while we will wait and see what the outcome is. AND SO WHAT IF I DID NOT CHOOSE NYP? competition within urselfs? oh please, i ought to deny ur sch isnt the best, so askin qustions like why i did not put NYP in my jpsae and jae will not make much of a difference.

GET THAT RIGHT.

i knew god was watching and he will noe how to handle you. my math aint that bad if u think it is.

My confidence flagged ever since. But looks like nursing is not for me. Oh well, i tried my best now its up to him.

still i belive :)

god bless.

I LOVE you castillo.

as i still ponder...

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