♥ Colour my Life

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

{ 9:54 AM }

CAUTION:This is random!

I am really quite upset,

never have i been this affected by a artist's death?

But ya,

the fact that Mj played a big part in my life,

some may not noe but,

As it is i am veryy very VERY,

affected when i see others own a i pod, i touch,

all the i's except i mac la,

Cause i lost mine which really meant the whole world to me,

it was like a baby,

not only because it had my name on it,

but because someone i love truly gave it to me as a random gift,

just cause he felt like pampering me,

and i kept it like gold, treated it like a baby,

listen to it like a mummy.

BUT NO, SOME ASS MUST TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME RIGHT?

OK back to my pt,

I remember in sem1 when i had troubles be it sch, family, relationship, friends,

i would actually ponder over such issues in the bus,

just while i do so,

"BEAT IT" plays,

and that song i say,

it really changes my mood and thoughts,

i feel alive in the morning cause of that song,

cause being in a design course turns u into a zombie.

I feel happy for some reason when i listen to Mj's songs,

and my ipod was full of his songs,

like seriously,

when i heard he was dead,

it just brings me back to the days i had my ipod wid me,

and how i used to listen his songs that made me love him,

this just sucks so much,

even while typing i am tearing.

DAMN IT.

But MJ just had to many critics he rather just die,

i pity him sometimes.

But i loved him so much,

when i heard he died,

i just stared at the msg for a good 10mins,

then switched on the tv at like 7am?

And read the headlines,

And fell into a wind whirl of thoughts.

WHICH I DIDNT WANNA THINK ABT.

Its ironic how i lost my ipod,

and how he died just a few months later,

the same yr,

It freaks me out,

listening to his songs just give me goosebumps,

even before he was dead,

now it can just make me cry.

The songs r repeating itself countless number of times,

i feel good, it makes me happy for some reason.

Well he is in a better place,

but my i pod isnt!!!!!!

HAIZ.

PLUS AM REALLY SCARED,

i have been having chest pains recently,

i dono why i dono if i should go check it,

and i am losing appetite,

today i had diarrhea, and i don feel like eating,

when i eat i wanna puke it out.

This is scary,

even more scary cause H1N1 IS SPREADING RAPIDLY.

Lord save me from all this thoughts and illness,

protect me like how you always do,

heal me like how you did when i was sick and depressed,

give me strength lord.

Baby's sick too :(

Fever,flu,cough

Lord cure my loved one,

and make him healthy,

Protect my family,

as they go to wrk everyday,

I cant bare to see them in pain oh lord,

So please protect us I noe you will :)

AMEN.

{ 2:19 AM }

Youre, mine!

ALL BECAUSE I LOVE YOU,

Happy 20th Birthday BEE,

URE God's bestest best best gift to me,

for that i thank him so much till i wanan cry.

Youre far most the best boyfriend i ever had,

oh wait, cause i only had one lol!

And blessed that it was you,

God made the right choice so did i :)

Never regretted a single bit being with you,

cause ure more than fun and loving,

youre everything i need and want,

And some people are just jealous,

how we are so much in love right?

SOME PEOPLE HAHAHAA.

loser.

Hope u enjoyed everything i did for u,

HAHA always ask for a surprise,

you had one tiring one rightttt,

LOVE YOU BUBU :)

{ 1:04 AM }

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY BABYBOY! :)

" CP'S Amazing Birthday Race"

THANK YOU LOVES FOR COMING AND HELPING ME OUT :):)

THANK YOU SO MUCH, LOVE U PEEPSSSSSS <3

Yes, Mr. Paul,

You are one fast boy.

Haha a confused one,

because you depend too much on the directory!

But still, you managed to make ur way thru,

only using one lifeline,

and for that KUDOS BU! :)

HAHA, don kill me for my birthday plspls :P

My love,

i hope you enjoyed ur birthday as much as,

How the rest of us did,

We showered you with gifts and you better love them!!

Plus, am sure you were tired after all the walking,

but it was all for u honey,

how much we all love you,

and how you have been there for us love <3

AND IT WASNT EASY PLANNING FOR YOU,

CAUSSE YOURE THE BIGGEST K-PO EVER.

HAHA.

P.S. Thank you everyone, for cooperating and

helping me out, to make casti's birth a memorable one :)

I LOVEE YOU BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :):):)

When we're together

or when we're apart

You're first in my thoughts

And first in my hearts

Happy birthday DARLING :)<3

P.S. YOU GOT SO MANY GIFTSSSSSSSSSSS :)

Friday, June 26, 2009

{ 11:27 AM }

I cant believe hw much we have grown,

this neo prints were taken like in our first yr together,

now we are like 4yrs+ already.

I was having straight hair loL!

love this boyyyyyyyyyyy :)

How much i have grown to love this boy,

no matter how much he annoys me,

how much he teases me,

how much he amuses me,

how much he chayangs me,

HE IS MY BOY,

MY LOVER BOY :)

someone's gonna become older :p

P.S. URE THE BEST BOYFRIEND EVER ALIVE :)<3

Thursday, June 25, 2009

{ 4:28 PM }

ITS 7.30AM,

i woke up wid a shocking news,

and i love him so much,

who cares abt his child,

his dam nose or watsoever,

haiz haiz,

How much i have grown up

to love his moves n music,

THE LEGEND,

has died?

Just like that,

he is just gone,

am curious,

i don believe this,

as said in the news,

no one does,

tears are just rolling down my cheeks,

even if i wasnt his hard core fan,

OH YM GOODNESSSS I CANT BELIEVE THIS.

HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ.

MAY YOU REST IN PEACE MJ :(:(:(

Bad, beat it, smooth criminal, thriller, black or white,

so many more how can this be u tell me? can die a not??

i should just relax and go drink water.

bye,

i love u mj forever :(<3

Monday, June 22, 2009

{ 10:53 AM }

AUTOBOT WHEELIE never really wanted to be a Decepticon.

It's just that, when people start yelling at him, he tends to do whatever they say.

He's easily starled, and simple to scare.

His tiny size makes him an ideal spy, and even though he doesn't like or agree with the DECEPTICONS, they scare him so much doesn't know what to do except obey.

This fella is cute and stupid hahaha.

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SERIOUSLY, TRANSFORMERS CAN TURN ME ON.

I CANT WAIT ANY LONGER,

ANY ANY ANY LONGER I AM SERIOUS ABT THIS,

HAHA, i wanted to watch gold class but apparently all tixs are sold out

BUT WHO CARES,

STILL WATCHING IT TMRM WOHOOOOOOOO,

AWESOME I SAY,

i am willin to watch it 10 times,

so peeps call me along if ure watching :)

Thats if i can come lol!

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AHHH YES I LOVE MY BABYGALS SO MUCHYY,

they are seriously dam sweet,

instead of clubbing,

they actually decided to stay wid me cause they

didnt wan me to be all alone at home,

I LOVE UUUUUU,

but revvyrev isnt in the pic haiz haiz:(

But still i love her :)

CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT SLEEPOVER SIAAAA :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)

MUAH MUAH MUAH <3<3

So next monday is my Baby big day umum,

Don act! :)

"Smallerrr boyerr tolder by the barberer!"

Ok above all i can only think of transformers seriously,

why the hell cant they just release it like right nw,

walkin into my bros room isnt making anything better

cause the amt of transformesr toys he has is makin me go insane thanks ahhhh,

damn damn damn,

INEEDTOWATCHIT.

OK SO,

-PHONICS

-SALT N PEPS

- HAMSTERS CAGE

i Have to finish My phonics props cause i am yet to print it grr,

Salt n peps by Friday,

Clean my Babies by wednesday :)

All set, And i feel like making sandwich for vco1 on wednesday

shall i be a sweetie?

HAHAHA.

P.s. i love my new dress :)

P.s.s. I LOVE MY CASTI BABY MORE :)

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

{ 12:02 PM }

Sitting down quietly,

reflecting upon things,

i just realised,

sad life i live.

I rather not have holidays sometimes,

It makes no difference.

I seriously don wanna be home alone this sat,

if anyone can come stay wid me pls do! :(

What makes it even worst is slack bro is going johor

for 3 dam days,

oh God bless me.

I am in the state that i feel confused, agitated and empty,

reason being?

Am effing broke i cant feed myself,

some people just refuse to give me moolah,

Eh seriously in total i spend approximately 150 for school,

be it printing or be it for materials,

after singapore day i am really cash-less,

i have never been so broke before,

making it worst comes the GSS,

which just hits me right in the heart.

FUCK MY LIFE.

Maybe u just dont understand my feelings,

and u think i don &^*$ *&^.

But think again,

think harder.

Its disappointing you might say,

but u don feel me dont you?

I have no money to print my phonics materials,

what can i or shall i do?

KILL MYSELF.

BYE.

I need my quiet time with the Lord now,

he listens and will bring me thru this i noe it,

I shall heed his advices.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

{ 10:31 AM }

So is it a wonderful kinda day?

Indeed,

zirca,rebeling was awesome.

Leslie's birthday was a success,

kudos to all!

Dance was fantastic by pussycat dolls and backsheet boys :)

Camper la now. <3

HAPPY 4YRS 3 MTHS ANNIVERSARY BABYBOY I LOVE YOU NONSTOP LA!

And its so ironic how they played the song when we entered,

the night was legendary :)

Submission on tuesday ok bye.

Monday, June 8, 2009

{ 11:41 PM }

Santa monica.

Sometimes, i just make wrong moves.
And it puts me to tears,
cause people don appreciate.
It hurts, but thats life,
i don wanna be a spoilt brad and cry.
Cry cry and cry,
A loser i will be.

So what if i don have you,
or i cant spend that special time with you,
its ok,
am not hurt but rather disturbed,
cause there is this barrier between us,
which is holding us back.
And this time round,
i don wish to rectify them,
i am sick of this.

I know you have others too,
and thus,
i am moving away,
Have fun love.

Ohwells,
school is a waste of time,
when lecturers aint ard to check on you,
seriously,
i am doing nothing.

But i am thinking of issues i should not bother myself about,
i seem to be more sensitive now, infact
this few days i should say.

Reason being?
God knows, he noes best.

I love you Jesus,
deep down in my heart.
Deep, deep, down, down deep down in my heart :)
HAHAHA.

Ok let me tell you,
that my asswipe Brother,
no wat,
loving, adorable brother,

Has 2 passes,
to watch LIVERPOOL TRAIN IN THE DAM ASS,
STADIUM,
WHAT A ASSHOLE HE IS,
and he didnt ask me,
cause he said this is for hard core fans haha ass.

And my dad gave it to him la!
Thanks ar appa.

But on the other hand,
26JULYYYYYYYYY!

I WILL GO MAD,
TORRES IS COMING,
but my Gerrard LOVER ISNT!

How sad can this get?
Like seriously,
whats liverpool widout him?

OH BOYYYYYYYYY,
nehmind Its still LIVERPOOL,
wohoooo.

i KINDA miss owen,
but he wasnt wise enough,
to sick to his team which he literally grew up with,
it was his passion,
well i guess not anymore.

EH, watever i shall enjoy myself on the 26th
WOHOOO CANT WAIT :) :):) <3

P.S. i miss u anna really do,
i need a hug badly ;(

P.S.S its been ages since i had a good 30mins talk
with you Castillo paul, :(:(

{ 11:41 PM }

MOVE SHAKE DROP.

DROP DEAD.

MY EYES ARE WATERY,

WATERRRR-RY

THEY JUST CANT STAY OPEN.

STRESS LEVEL 210% FOR NOW,

IT MIGHT DEFER I HOPE,

I MUST NOT FORGET TO BUY RIBBONS

AND BRING MY MEMORY CARD TMRM.

I MISS YOU :(

asmarey tmrm.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

{ 3:54 PM }

The time is 6.54am,

and i just ate my mom's crab,

it tasted awesomely good,

just cause she hasnt been cooking,

and i refused to eat earlier

because i noe i would eventually fall asleep,

cause indian food only makes u sleep and fat la.

I am almost there for studio,

i am done with typo,

i need a lil more help wid indesign,

Asmara is going on the right track,

Singapore day logo i am yet to correct it,

items can be done fast,

i need a scanner,

will do that at casti's

I need sleep,

my back n head is aching so bad,

i wanna kill myself,

and u are not there,

sometimes ure useless seriously.

bye.

{ 12:31 PM }

YOURE EFFING FREAKING ANNOYINGLY USELESS!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

{ 7:06 PM }

I have finally managed to squeeze sometime to say this,

this is for my angels,

whom i would like to thank alot for ur help, care, concern, love

and everything else that i just dono how to return back.

So here it goes.

Lirong thank you so much for helping me for my typo,

you made a huge difference and despite the fact that u were still

busy with ur own work,

you still helped me out,

i really appreciate all ur help that u have

never said 'no' to,

i love ya!

Amalina thank you so much for telling me there

is actually a 30 day trail for indesign cause

i was stupidly waiting for the adobe people to reply me,

hahaha! And obviously for all ur help that has actually been of use

for my work :)

i love ya!

Hazwani, what can i say?

You have always been the one,

haha the one who is always there to listen to my life story right?

You have benn helping me out consistently and i feel so stupid sometimes,

cause you seen to know everything like ama n lirong.

Youre my online buddy who always helps me out immediately,

wa ure like some help hotline can?

hahahahahahhaa.

From the start of yr one,

your help,care,concern and love has been much appreciated by me :) :)

i love ya!

Km, haiya nothing to say la,

u help everyone also la all the time,

hahahaha,

thanks km for all ur help in fotoshop n illustrator!

SERIOUSLY I APPRECIATE THEM SO MUCH!

but i cant be as early as u for class -_-

THANKS KM U ROCK!

PATMA PRIYA, my lil babygal,

who has always been the ultimate listening ear,

i might be crying, screaming, laughing even eating,

she is always there,

and she has helped me for my wrk when i am freaking stressed out

and jus need someone who is artistic as well,

she is the one who has been by my side countless number of times,

how can i not love someone like that?

7 yrs now, i love you longtime PP,

and u noe it,

don worry ur MR.RIGHT will come soon!

And you are always in my prayers love <3

CANT WAIT FOR TONIGHT WOHOO!

i love thee ladylove :)

Melvinio Messi aka ANNEH,

You have always been my role model,

not ur big feet or belly all ahaha,

but cause u are have been so strong in life,

Be it depression, anger, bliss

you have been able to control your life so well,

not the lazy part la,

that i shall ignore for now haha!

Even of we are 9 yrs apart,

you still advise me so much,

abt so many things that i have not been able to

handle,

and youre so handsome,

ok i cant belive i am saying this but ya ahhaha,

cause so many gals are going insane cause of u ahahahha.

ok nehmind, besides that,

i lvoe ur company when i am doing my wrk,

i love talking to u, and tellin u my worries and sorrow,

and till today i am still scared of you,

even of i noe that ure not gonna scold me like before,

memories lingers on my mind,

and i can still feel the fear in my blood,

when i fainted when u scolded me,

and i didnt breathe, and to see u cry cause i wasnt breathing,

clearly showed me how much u love m anneh :)

And the convo u had with me when i didnt wan to go home

just put me to tears in class,

i am extremely lucky to have a bro like you,

lookin at other brothers i feel so gifted to have you anneh :)

I noe u will be a successful person since ure good with numbers,

and i noe you will be there for me whenever i need u,

Others said they only talk to their bros when there is a need to,

but we, we jus bond so much,

we can talk abt anything n everything is the whole universe!

And i love makin teh for u even if u ask me to make it for u when

i am rendering, cow la you,

i don think you will read this but i just wanna thank you for ur support and love anneh :)

My hols are coming lets go rock the world (201) together.

YNWA!!!!

VINITHA MY VALERIE!,

THANKS FOR BEING A SWEETHEART N A DARLING,

and following me all the way to arab to buy my materials,

and also giving me ideas for my work honey bunny!

nto forgeettinnnn for makin my day by buyin me the shoess,

which i am abt to transfer back soonish!

AND URE THE BEST SHOPPING PARTNERRRRRRRRR :) :) :)

even if ure a man u supporter its ok la,

ure my lesbian sollu,

ALLI N CASTI CAN GO DIE HAHAHA,

They bikers all,

Then we better be wid each other haha,

plus cassy la,

Oh yes now lets get serious,

You always make y day with ur endless amt of jokes,

and ur smile makes me wanna smile wid u too,

wid you i jus forget all my sorrows and just wanna hav fun under the sun,

haha and u tell me secrets abt some peopleeeeeee ( WOMAN! )

HAHAHAHAH U NOE WHO AHHA.

WTH SIA, and we should take more les shots kkkkkkkk?

I LOVE YOU,

you can always come to me for help money shit or food?

lol!

I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUU MY LESBO :) <3

My Malaysian Smell Boy,

This i have to say,

I thank God everyday for sending me this special angel,

which never fails to put a smile on my face

and make my life colourful.

You noe how much i love you and how much i love ur smell

ahahahahahahahahaha.

My Mr.dunhil U rock my life all the time,

sometimes i run out of words abt u,

i jus cant describe how much i love you

and how much you mean to me,

youre just a amazing gift from heaven,

which i don wanna lose no matter what,

ure been working hard,

and i have been miss u bad.

Youre a gem, that gem which shines out like no other,

my love, honey, sweetie, baby, bu, sayang, cupcake, sugarrr,

macdonald egg! hahaha,

Thanks for tolerating my whining and sleepy nagging

and stress eating,

i love you baby boy :) <3

Hope ur att goes well,

i noe ur can do it!

And of course not forgetting my beloved parents,

who took all my nonsense and yelling at them in anger,

for giving me money and appa thanks for all the GT! TEHEEEE

i HOPE both of u really understand me now i love u both endlessly :) <3

AND DUH, MY HAMSTERS HAVE ALWAYS BEEN MY WORLD :) :) :)

In conclusion,

i love my friends and loved ones,

forever n ever,

AMEN.

p.s. i dropped my baby :(

thank God she still functions :)

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