The worst week everr. All alone in this world, Not able to control my feelings, No one is ard to listen, No one to heal my wounds, Make me whole, Here i am crying away, Wailing in thoughts, As i see my hamster spin itself round the colourful wheel.
Bring my life back, Give me ideas, Burn the lecturers, Guide me, Help me, Pity me, Anything me pls, I hate this.
I feel ive got no one to talk too right now, If i do no one knows what i want,need and doesnt understand my msg, Its clear, its simple. Yet no one understands, No one can help me, cause ure asking for too much, Time is running out, i cant think, I dono what i want.
Help me, Pls i need motivation, i need innovation, i need, i need.
Face is making everything worst, all those red scars, make me feel uglier, i can only marry a toad, a really big fat toad, which lays over the dirty rock, Only the toad would marry me. No maybe it wont.
I give up, everything. I will just do what i can.
Maybe this is not for me, everything i do seems wrong, and i feel i am a mistake, lets see what i get, dont be surprised if i quit.
I can always do something else. Yes this means quit VC. I dono why, but maybe God is telling me something, Cause this cant be happening.
I miss someone, Someone who cares, someone who is always there, someone whom i love. There are two someones, One which i wanna stay away from, Another, which i try to attract but repels somehow.
I have to stand for myself, Maybe i should start looking for other things which i am gd at, and join it, instead of being here trying to excel but fail everytime, and i noe for sure, my wrk isnt good at all. Never was it good.
This clearly shows i am pointless, yes i am, i am a loser, i admit, i need to calm down.
I have tried, yet failed, " Is this all you have done?" has killed my spirit, i cant do this anymore, I just wanna cry.
CRY BABY CRY.
I guess i am walking alone, P.S. Save me, the cry baby.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
{ 9:43 AM }
And yes, it got rejected again, why am i not surprised?
Stupid fella, seriously his idea doesnt work at all, its just boring, And further more i am not a person, who adds graphic humour in my wrk, when i did they reject, i am just pissed.
He can have his stupid bulbs to himself.
Today i went food shoppin with my Amma, and ahhaha she rocks, cause she keep askin cute questions, like why i need chilli and all, she was shocked they were all gonna be for studio, hahaha :):):)
And THANKS TO FAIZ, i am actually forcing my parents to get me the choco coloured cam! GRRR THANKS AHHHHH.
PLUS, hazwani we have got issues, because our frequency level likes each other, haha SO here is the story, she follwed me to get a drink at south, so i was deciding wat drink, then i saw ROOT BEER, then she said " NO CAFFEINE?" i quickly eyed at the root beer and was full of questions, when i turned to her to ask, she asked me the same thing at the same timing " YOU MEAN IT HAD CAFFEINE?" HAHAHAHAHA, HILARIOUS SERIOUSLY, tehhe <3
Its really hard to get myself to do wrk, i dono where to start, after planning even, i am missing castillo alot lately i dono why, its just like that, ahahah i drooled on his bag sia! Cause i was too sleepy, i am not like nick who drools o his com ahahhaah!
I cant wait to go shopping haz again on wed :) :) And i cant wait FOR TMRM MOST IMPORTANTLY, WOHOO YNWA :):)
I feel like wearing all the jerseys i have, even my bros hahaa, i wish arrrrr. Chey chey, and Torres is playing for more then 10mins, cause he only played 1omins for the thailand match which is ridicule. Totally. WA CANT WAIT SIA. :) <3
OK, so i have enough of drama in my life, and i dono why someeeee educated people just hav no brains, and they have to tak people's words so seriously, and make them a serious issue for no reason, besides, involving everyone and deciding not to talk to us, IS STUPID. hello call urself educated???
THINK AGAIN. I MEAN, Ure a christain u go to church for what then? FORGIVE N FORGET LA, wanna bring ur father mother, neneh all for wat sia? Dam stupid u are, and u hav disappointed my family muchh, So goodbye, since u wanna make this an issue, i don need to talk to u, I am speechless after hearing what ur problem was, And pls the people whom u told, they don wanna talk to us either, AND ure a priest? JOKESSSSSSSSSS LAAAAAAAAAA.
UNGRATEFUL, people buy for u pampers, pay ur dam hp bill and u don wanna talk to us, GOD IS WATCHING, he will handle you. We need not say or do anything.
I thinkk people are very ungrateful, i just tried comforting someone and, the person was like ya ok. OKOK. thanks, EHHH GO N DIE LA JUST GO N DIE.
Good enough i care n try, Not say i never faced failures, i think i faced more then you. Wait till ur two sons grow up, well they are still young, i hope karma hits u back, cause we are truly disappointed, Foolish people.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
{ 2:38 PM }
COME TO MAMA, BABIES :):):):) <3<3
It shall be a new offspring to the family of my, loves <3
Monday, July 20, 2009
{ 10:23 AM }
The sweetest Annivesary cake i have ever seen :)
And my Godparents are the sweetest to buy my parents, this wonderful cake :) Even if its suppose to be 33rd who caresss!
Love and marriage has been a long and difficult road. Faith has been your carriage, God has lightened your load.
Together you have progressed to your 33rd year, with the words of God whispering in your ear.
Your one life together has you both united, but the joys to come have just been sighted.
I love you both for being young at heart and making an oath never to depart.
You belong side by side, your passion strong with nothing to hide.
God bless you two, Mom and Dad. Happy Anniversary!
I LOVE YOU BOTH,
even if i complain alot abt you,
Deep down i can never thank how much you both mean to me,
And yes haz our frequency seriously man HAH, Ok i shall go ard class lookin at everyones face tmrm.
HUH are u sure the doctor said so? LOL, punch the fella la, i bet he meant the opposite. Eh hello you don talk so much your face nice nice ready, serious laaaaaaa.
hAZZY WAZZYY lol.
And dionne you are sucha a good actor, u can do stand up comedy ready sia!
ESP FOR MISS TAN HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA, Lirong haz and myself could not stop laughin :):) HAHA i shall tell casti abt him being castilla soon, when i talk to him ahahahhaahhaha.
FUNNY GAL WHO MAKES MY DAY, LOVE YAAAA <3 I foresee a busy week, And i am really missing my Baby, even if we meet it seems so fast, cause we both have things to catch up with, and we cant even dinner together, unless i don wanna do my wrk, i cant wait for the weekkendddss, wohoooooooo we should have a picnic CAS, haha so we buy extra food, since its all for my project -_- Talking about projects, i hate it when lecturers point out how many weeks/days we have left for us to get our work done, firstly, you were the ones prolonging our progress due to rejections, and by doing so we lack of sleep, and thus the out break, i cant look at myself in the mirror, as it is i am already fat n ugly, out break? wat more? I am very hungry at the moment, and i refuse to eat maggi, noo nice no! Tmrm i shall buy coffee with son:) AND I FINALLY GOT OVER PHONICS :):) WE ALL GOT DISTINCTIONS WOHOOOOOOO. YES YES, am MISS NATALIE, MRS PAUL ALSO CAN LA.
Ok am too random, my brain is nott functioning quite right, HAZ WE SHOULD GO SHOPPING, tehhee :P
Sunday, July 19, 2009
{ 11:52 PM }
Santa monica.
Sometimes, i just make wrong moves. And it puts me to tears, cause people don appreciate. It hurts, but thats life, i don wanna be a spoilt brad and cry. Cry cry and cry, A loser i will be.
So what if i don have you, or i cant spend that special time with you, its ok, am not hurt but rather disturbed, cause there is this barrier between us, which is holding us back. And this time round, i don wish to rectify them, i am sick of this.
I know you have others too, and thus, i am moving away, Have fun love.
Ohwells, school is a waste of time, when lecturers aint ard to check on you, seriously, i am doing nothing.
But i am thinking of issues i should not bother myself about, i seem to be more sensitive now, infact this few days i should say.
Reason being? God knows, he noes best.
I love you Jesus, deep down in my heart. Deep, deep, down, down deep down in my heart :) HAHAHA.
Ok let me tell you, that my asswipe Brother, no wat, loving, adorable brother,
Has 2 passes, to watch LIVERPOOL TRAIN IN THE DAM ASS, STADIUM, WHAT A ASSHOLE HE IS, and he didnt ask me, cause he said this is for hard core fans haha ass.
And my dad gave it to him la! Thanks ar appa.
But on the other hand, 26JULYYYYYYYYY!
I WILL GO MAD, TORRES IS COMING, but my Gerrard LOVER ISNT!
How sad can this get? Like seriously, whats liverpool widout him?
OH BOYYYYYYYYY, nehmind Its still LIVERPOOL, wohoooo.
i KINDA miss owen, but he wasnt wise enough, to sick to his team which he literally grew up with, it was his passion, well i guess not anymore.
EH, watever i shall enjoy myself on the 26th WOHOOO CANT WAIT :) :):) <3
P.S. i miss u anna really do, i need a hug badly ;(
P.S.S its been ages since i had a good 30mins talk with you Castillo paul, :(:(
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
{ 8:02 AM }
Shopping with thee love :)
"Sharing good times with good friends is the greatest joy. This is the stuff that makes life worthwhile. Whether sharing a meal together or a good conversation, there is nothing more fulfilling then spending time with friends. We must be thankful for the friendships that come our way for not all are blessed with the skills to form deep relationships. Those of us that do have friends must never take for granted the gift bestowed upon us."
And so,let me get to the point,going shoppin wid haz was awesomeee :) hahaha,As gals obviously we camwhoredhahahaha. And we are definitely goingg shopping again whee :)HAHA ,love shopping with her cause,she makes wise decisions for me, just like how i keep telling her" Sure can find cheaper down the lane"HAHAH.
And i totally agreee HAZ,OUT FREQUENCY LEVEL SAME SIA! ESP WHEN,Asmara lady said we have to start using illustrator for wine logo, hahahahaSo cute we areeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. AND I HAVE TO SAY THIS,since the first time i saw u haz, u have really became prettier,like seriously, ure becoming a hottie as day passes,chey chey don blush allll,teheeeee.
I LOVE YOU HAZZY WAZZY :)
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
{ 10:48 AM }
HAPPY 4YRS4MTHS ANNI BABYBOY! <3<3
When you asked me, " Bu how much do u love me?" I said, "If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you."
And i meant it with all my heart and soul, Never can i or will i imagine myself, being with some other person, cause i noe ure all i need and want, Its been a long ride, and each day i just cant stop loving you, loving you for who you are, You always put a smile on my face, even when ure angry, you just make me smile haha, ( Bu ure a clown) :P
Before i go on, this happened yesterday, When i was over at casti's place and he did something retarded like wats new?
But i thought i should share.
SO, we were abt to take our dinner, when i told him the food is too cold can u pls heat it up, MR.WISE MAN CASTILLO, took the dish and put it in to the microwave for 10 secs, HAHA STUPID COW, then took it out just to realise it isnt even a bit heated up, then MR. WISE MAN CASTILLO, decides to put it back inside for another 10secs, . . . . . . . . . . . Ten secs later, He took it out and realised its not even heated up again, HAHAHA, MR.WISE MAN CASTILLO, decided to put it back again for another ten secs, he thought 10+10+10 made 30, so 30secs was enough HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH,
and when he took it out, HE LOOKED AT ME, AND GUESS WHAT?
MR.WISE MAN CASTILLO, GOT SO AGITATED, and decides to put the dish back into the microwave FOR9999MINS HAHAHAHAHA.
LOL. Back at ya bu, for telling everyone my rambutan story! :):) :p
How adorable he is :)
Ok and so, this is how we grew up being together for 4 yrs plus now :) it just makes me smile widely at the thought of it :) wheeeeee.
Our first pic together, the first day we went on :):)
IGNORE OUR LOOKS, haha.. If i am not wrong this was our first yr together, this was taken in tp for swarnam, and yes i have been attending swarnam since i was in primary school, how insane. so cuteee we look like smalll kids haha :)
HAHA, then we grew up to look a lil different haha, I remember that was my fav polo t of his, and his fav top of mine LOL :) such memoriessssssssssss <3 style="text-align: center;">
THEN WE BECAME MATURED HAHA :):)
Not forgetting ure always there, wid my loved ones :):):):)
This was after swarnam as well, dono when. hahaha my hairrrr :) AND MY FACEEEEE, SO DAM FLAWLES CANN??
MARCH 14TH 2008 :) THE DAY I WILL NEVER FORGET, EVEN IF I LOST MY MEMORY.
THIS IS MY ALL TIME FAV PIC OF US :) I LOVE IT SO MUCH.
One of the million pictures, when u decide to smile, SOO CUTE!!!!
Malaysia-ing with him, haha my first time, Our iconic shirts haha, MY FACE SO DAM FLAWLESS AGAIN, WA I SHOULD KILL MYSELF NOW.
In cassy's house :) wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i love you BU :)
I can only be comfortably retarded with you, cause ure my lover tehee.
On your birth's last yrrrr.
Some random dayyyy :):)
We grew closerrrr closerrr and closerrrrr, Even during renovation :):)
Vimal's birth :):):)
MARCH 14 2009!!!!!!! Our 4yrs togetherrr, blissfulness.
IN THE CLUBB HAHAHA, :)
Hand in hand, we hold each other tight, never wanting to let go, We share our joys, just like depicted in that picture :)
Our visit to the place we first met, hahahaa, i was in my gal guides uniform btw! And he said i was cute in it, ahahhahaa, i blushed like a mad dog. :):):):)
AND THIS IS CURRENTLY, looking at how much we have gone thru together, laughing crying and dying, our love never fades, i have never regretted, and never will, i love you too much i would never wana lose you, Youre my dream boy. i love you with all my heart dear :) You make my days so colourful, i don wanna leave this world, cause you make me happy always. Even if ure a pain in my ass sometimes ahaha, like how u always pinch my hips eheh, my hips dont lie don play ahhh.
I still love you alllll the sameeeeee.
CASTILLO PAUL ADOLPH I LOVE YOU MUAHHHHH.
OK NOW, LETS GET MARRIED AHAHA.
And i really think i love you alot, i even hug your shirt to sleep :)
THE TWO videos which are too special to me :) enjoy :D
The videos are putting me to tears :(
I love you BU! <3
Sunday, July 12, 2009
{ 8:30 AM }
A.MUST.HAVE.HAIR
i want it, i wan a Bob too, but with my hair, it wil be a mop -_-
I don wanna straighten, no way will i ditch my curls :P
WILL THAT HAIRSTYLE SUIT ME? I WANT HER HAIR BADLY. SOMEONE HELP ME.
Monday, July 6, 2009
{ 10:07 AM }
How can i not love the person, who snapped this shot for me?
I LOVE U VVV <3
OK, so shopping with haz soonish i hope :D
First day of sch, and yet, everyone is tired and worn out already!
Looking at the briefs i foresee, Sleepless nights+hrs at printing shops+coming back late+ lack of food+beggin for money+ going bald = WEEKS OF HELL.
Yes the time has started once again, good news is, this is only gonna last for say 13weeks? And then comes the 2mths of bombb haha.
I have to finish salt n pepper!!
I am rather lazy to type out, so errr. Watever, i need to get my wrk started.
My face is like shit, freaking dry i cant take the dam dryness, its like peeling and cracking when i smile, annoying, as it is i am freakin fat n wat-so-ever, this makes everything worst, lookin into the mirror, i just wanna break it. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. The burning sensation is ten times worst, its like wa don need to tan can?
Like PP said no need blusher! HAHA.
OK am lazy, i need to save energy for my wrk, toodles. :)
Thursday, July 2, 2009
{ 1:51 PM }
ஹெஅல்திவேர்ல்ட் :)
WA DAM ANN SIA.
hehe.
Bored is the word right now, its like friday, the week passed like flash, and i miss going out taking pictures, its time, PEOPLE COME LETS GO TAKE NICE SHOTS :)
